what's the matter mom? issy asks me as she sees me sniffle and wipe away a few tears. i tell her the standard, "nothing." then as she hands me a smallish wildflower with crumpled petals and smooshed leaves, she says, it will be okay. then i break out into more sobs because who doesn't cry more when someone tries to help? then she hugs me and says, maybe you should pray to jesus because he can help you. i say, good idea issy. then she says, he can reach out his hand and touch you and you will be all better. of course, more waterworks, because then i felt like the biggest loser that i needed my 5 year old to tell me to say a prayer for help. as i wipe my eyes and prepare to take her to preschool, i have two thoughts run through my mind:
1. i should have worn waterproof mascara today(oh well, i will just wear my sunglasses to cover the racoon eyes)
2. oh my heck, she is going to totally mention that i was crying to her preschool teachers and they are going to look at me all pathetic and think what kind of mother cries on her 5 year olds shoulder?
moral: don't use your 5 year old for moral support if you don't want your personal life divulged through dramatic play and wear waterproof mascara on days you sense the onslaught of that dreaded "PMS."
pppsss....i am currently tear-free, but wearing waterproof mascara just in case!!!
ppppppsssss...just for the record, i was crying for no reason at all...i know, stupid! remind me next time to suck it up and deal!!! i hate crying!! gag!!
4 comments:
I think it is great that you cry. Crying and laughing are the outer limits of a full-range-of emotions. It is good to feel the full range of feelings, just like it is good to swing all the way through the ball when playing golf or tennis. And wouldn't it be terrible to be an emotionless android that never experiences the joy of joy?
The pendulum of your feelings might swing wide, Ash, but I admire your experience of life and envy your energy and enthusiasm.
Also, raccoon-eyes are a cultivated look for some people. Maybe you'll start a fashion trend in the Northwest.
Love you Ash.
What a sweet little daughter you have and I don't think that you are a loser at all. I think that Heavenly Father sends us these amazing children for those times when we need little reminders.
Glad that there's nothing too big making you cry. What a sweet baby girl you have to love you so much and to know to turn to the Savior when things stink, you are a good mother.
Also, I like your new blog background, it is easier to read.
hey i love your very thought provoking "analysis" it make sense! i will have to try the raccoon eyes more often and see if it stirs up anything!! thanks steve
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