"come on, get out of this funk," i tell myself. i have been in a funk this week. maybe it is the weather, maybe it is the massive amounts of shedding i do ALL day long that has got me down, maybe it is that last 10lbs i am desperate to shed(without actually excersing it off, of course...and then feeling guilty about it), or maybe it is the fact that my addiction to chocolate has begun to consume my life.....AGAIN!!
i hate addictions. i detest addictions. i have had my fair share of addictions and horrible bad habits in my life and i do not like to dwell on them nor do i enjoy sharing them with others....but come on people, eating chocolate has got to go!!! i need help! i do not enjoy sharing with you the lowest points in my chocolate addiction, but just to give you some indication of how badly it has been, my lowest point is eating a bag of chocolate chips within an hour...only to top it off with 2 1lb. chocolate bars. GROSS!!
what is interesting about this addiction is that i had a major aversion to chocolate while pregnant. i could not stand the smell let alone the taste of chocolate. this addiction has only presented itself again within the last 2 months. i was certain i had "kicked" the habit but alas, i have fallen "off the wagon" so to speak and am trying to claw my way out again. i try to tell myself, "only one truffle, or just a few chocolate chips, just one mini-chocolate bar" but then i can't stop with just one. after i go grocery shopping, ned has to take all the chocolate chips out to the garage in hopes that putting them in the freezer out there will deter me from eating them. it will work for awhile, but eventually i break down, telling myself i am just getting them to whip up a batch of cookies, all the while knowing in my heart i will eat them!!!!!!! insane!!
a few years ago i was able to stop eating chocolate. i was able to control myself and found great satisfaction in doing so, not to mention the weight i lost. but lately, i find no satisfaction in the self-discipline of not eating chocolate. i have tried writing down what i eat so i can see on paper how much chocolate i am consuming, but i even cheat at that. i will sneak it and then not write it down, thus making me feel even more like a failure. so, i decided i would allow myself a little chocolate each day, but that too can get out of control. i find it very difficult to stop with just a little. what's even worse, the chocolate upsets will's stomach and you would think that would encourage me to be careful, but "NO" it doesn't. i am such a loser...hello!!
so, i need help. i am a chocoholic. can anyone, anyone give me some advice???? i want to stop. please help me with my addiction. it is getting pretty pathetic!!
7 comments:
You're sooooooooooooo not a loser. It's great to be here, I'm a fellow chocaholic and my name is Angela.
Wish I had something helpful to say except that if it's IN the house I don't eat it. If I can't get my hands on it, I dream about it and then eat too much when I do buy it. Now that's weird. I'll let you know if I have any epiphanies.
My weakness is anything sweet. I find it is best to not even buy it and bring it into the house. Once I do that I am lost. So don't buy it and don't convince yourself that you can eat just one. It doesn't work. MOM
My name is Rachel and I am a Chocoholic! I have been fighting this same addiction for many more years than you! There is no answer only to say - when you are not so stressed out with life - it is easier to deal with it! I still have my bad days of eating WAY too much and then other days where I do really good! Telling myself I can have just a little has never been a good answer for me it is either all or nothing! Just give yourself a break! Sometimes we need it! So eat it and then don't beat your self up about - that only makes it worse! Enjoy it and move on! I have in the past when my kids were little eaten all my allotted calories in Chocolate! Sick I know! But there is hope - I haven't done that for a long time! Life gets easier and chocolate is not such a draw! Chocolate and me are linked emotionally! So I eat it to fill some void! Figure out what the void is and deal with that! Sorry not the greatest advise but I am feeling your pain!
Yes my friend I feel your pain! But after getting stuck in the ice this afternoon I felt completely justified in finishing the 1/2 pan of double thick brownies my 9 year old baked while I wasn't looking yesterday. My best advice is don't teach your kids to bake because it gets sooo much worse. I agree w/ Rachel, currently I'm eating a lot more since things have been stressful for me. I'm counting on our family vacation to calm my nerves. I'll let you know if it works.
i am soooo pleased i am not alone in this endeavor. just so you know, i didn't eat any chocolate today...yeah!!! i don't even crave it right now...that may change when that fun time of the month comes again..yikes!! i appreciate all your support. i have been talking to friends about this problem of mine and it seems that they have some great advice and many are struggling too...that gives me some comfort!!!YEAH!
I say, if you are nursing, you are basically like a pregnant woman. Pregnant women should give into their cravings because there is something your body needs. You NEED it, Ashley. Do as the body says. When you stop nursing, you can set crazy goals, but in the mean time, enjoy the excuse, even if the little cutie pie hates it. He'll get used to having it in his system, right?
I was embarrassed to say this on my blog when I announced my new years food goal, but I have also downed an entire bag of chocolate chips. And spoonful after spoonful of peanut butter. Which is why I decided to give those things up. You could do the same thing--just completely give up chocolate unless it has been prepared into something (it's way easier to say no to eating a whole batch of cookies than a whole bag of chocolate chips or M&M's). And just like most others, self control for me is all or nothing--I can't just have a little bit. So, yeah, good luck with that!!
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